Fisherman's Wharf

well.. woke up in the morning.. thought of clam chowders at the fisherman's wharf.. called the rest.. and they were too stoned to wake up..

waking up timings always screw up for everyone when we do a states flight.. itz like 18 hours behind singapore and itz hard to be awake whenever u want to be awake..

anyway, slept again, and woke up at 12 noon.. called jehan and the mainland twins (they are not really mainland twins.. not even related to each other.. hui is a girl and huey is a guy.. unrelated).. only jehan could be awake to go to the wharf..

so we did.. went makan at the siam restaurant at the hotel first.. and when we got to the wharf.. we walked around and went into several shops..

here's the pics i took at the wharf..



i saw brat pitt and angelina jolie!



their wax replicas i mean.. at the wax museum..



me with some newfound friends at pier 39 at the fisherman's wharf..



with the golden gate bridge in the background..



for Forrest Gump fans.. We're here at the end of the Pier.. Forrest

anyway.. had some crepes and coffee with Jehan at the pier before we head back to the hotel.. and had dinner at The Cheesecake Factory..

for those who dunno anything abt it.. Cheesecake Factory is quite an upperclass restaurant at the top of Macy's in front of Union Square..

we exchanged our lovelife stories and hmm.. i think she had it worse off than me..

anyway, she recently started a relationship with another crew.. and the guy seemed to be genuinely in love with her.. but somehow, due to a past relationship, she had problems trusting..

which one is better.. loving and losing? or never to love at all?

i think i'll choose the latter..

why would someone get into a relationship to control someone else?

would controlling ur partner means that u love ur partner? or u love urself? u might love urself too much that u want ur partner to conform to u..

i had lived 2 weeks short of 33 yrz.. and i dont think i need ppl to come up and tell me how to live my life.. not only that.. I HATE IT..

and trust me.. people had tried.. time and again.. and honestly? i'll make my move if i'm being suffocated..

if u love someone.. let them go when itz time to do so.. u can love someone from afar.. and if u can do that, u are truly loving that person. if u want to possess that person, u are loving urself and ur possessions.

Golden Gate

hey hey.. i'm in san francisco now.. in the crew lounge having coffee and cigarettes..

anyway.. nothing much had happened for the past few days.. was in seoul yesterday..

landed at 3pm just now in san francisco.. had lunch at the siam restaurant, and walked ard downtown for a while.. bought myself a thin winter jacket and a long sleeved t-shirt from old navy's..

A & F not having sale.. so itz not worth buying anything.. a simple t-shirt cost 59.90! US dollars some more! jeez..

might prolly head down to FCUK tmrw.. i saw a small sign stating "SALE Available Inside" outside the entrance just now.. but just too tired to go in..

gonna wake up early tmrw morning to go up to the fisherman's wharf with (probably) jehan, hui and huey..

hui and huey.. heh.. sounds like some mainland twins, don't they?

Cangkareng

hmm... i just got back from jakarta.. reported in the morning and came back in the afternoon.. so in time to celebrate the second day of hari raya..

anyway, had a nice day yesterday.. started off quite late after slacking at home watching tv.. my close friends, firdaus (wily) and andrew (volvic) came down at abt 5..

after that, a stream of guests kept coming till after midnight..

anyway, slacked off at home with wily and volvic.. and the three of us.. 3 single, unattached bachelors.. having ZERO problems in relationships and shitz like that..

as much as girls would think that there are no nice men around.. and the perfect guy is either taken or gay.. isnt that what they say? we think that therez no sane women around. except for all our mothers.. yes.. including urs.. whoever u are.. mothers are ok.. but a lot of women are psychotic, possessive, and they just love to intrude..

during the flight, had a conversation with the crew.. since we didnt have much things to do as it was almost an empty flight..

to the women whoz reading this 2 cents crap of mine..

guys dont like to be nagged at. we dont like to be controlled.. we dont like our lives to be intruded. unless we are married then we have no choice but to attempt a happy home.. if itz just a relationship, DONT TRY.

i have met married friends of mine.. and if they are women.. once they find out that i am not married.. they'll go.. zul.. u should get married.. itz nice having a family.. blablablayadayadayada..

and the guys.. once they know that i am not married.. they'll go.. brader.. u are smart xia.. if i know.. i would stay single..

dammit.. itz not like it had happened once or twice.. but at LOT of my married male friends have some regrets getting married.. and if u contrast the pros to the cons.. the cons outweighs it all..

i have a friend of my age, married for 6 yrz, chindian fella with a chinese wife.. and hated his marriage like hell.. no kids, a wife whoz getting less and less of being a friend as the marriage pass.. and he is less of a friend to her as well.. and to consider the situation.. i think i'm ahead in some ways..

i dont have marriage depressions.

i dont get lonely as i have a lot of things to do. if one day, i grow old and wither alone, so will be all those who are married and divorced.. they'll be at the next bed at the old folks home with me.. with their depression along with them..

and *IF* i decide in later years (or months.. depending on what the situation in sydney brings.. ) to settle down.. i think i have the upperhand, of being emotionally stable.. like the rest of my friends of my age.. having a stable career.. and on top of it all, i'm not married and divorced like them..

those who rushed into marriages in the early age of 20somethings, good luck to u..

we live in a world unlike our parents'. they had lesser influence of their days in marriage to stray..

if u had just started living ur life and u wanna cramp someone else within it.. one day it will just break apart coz u know not what life brings..

if u had matured correctly, i think that whatever the future holds will more or less go with the trend of life that u had learnt thru the years..

and for those who thinks that i only like the young girlfriends.. lemme just say.. i love pretty faces and i hate it when women starts to talk abt marriage.. so i stick with those who does not give me pressure to tie myself up in matrimony..

but if i do find the need to settle down, i'll go for a matured woman. i dont like headaches.

itz hard to say goodbye to bachelorhood when u had been loving it so much.. so i guess i'll remain this way...

will be away for 7 days from tomorrow morning.. to seoul and san francisco.. and i'm gonna be having my clam chowder at the fisherman's wharf..

Geylang Bazaar

ok.. i just got back from the bazaar.. again.. and tonite is the last time that they'll ever have it there..

damn.. i dont understand why i enjoy going down there to suffer the heat, pain, sweat and smell from everyone else's sweat.. but i did..

statistics for today..

# of ppl who turned up at the bazaar tonite: 50 million
# of friends i met: 1
# of cute girl(s) i saw: 1

dammit.. i think my friends had all stopped going to the bazaar.. thru the 6 times i was there.. i saw 7 ppl i recognise.. of all the thousands of ppl there..

and thru the 7 times, i can only see 2 cute girls.. weird.. one was abt a week ago, a girl in white, browsing thru the stuffs.. while i was with my mom, din and hamdy..

and tonite.. the only cute girl there was a girl who sold flowers rite at the end of the bazaar.. near to the temple.. and if u think u wanna go there to take a look at her.. too bad.. that was the last of the bazaar.. so goodbye cute girl..

somehow, i realised that most of the beautiful women in the world can be found in Asia.. and i think the population of beautiful girls are mostly in singapore.. but somehow they stopped going to the bazaar.. only mats and minahs..

and i realised that for a long time, it had been hard for me to get WOWED by girls.. i dunno why.. not even these 2 girls that i mentioned.. i dont have the inclination to turn my head to take a second look at these girls.. ok.. maybe a second look at the 2... but not a third..

would the real cute girls.. wherever u are.. please stand up.

Ang Mung Ngay Le Ra Chai

Wishing all my friends, old and new, and those that i have not known yet, Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Fitri.. or thru the words of my Vietnamese friend, Aminah, Ang Mung Ngay Le Ra Chai.. meaning, Celebration at the end of Ramadhan.. yeah.. ok..

anyway, listening to takbir now.. mufti just announced abt 20 minutes ago that tmrw is gonna be raya.. yeayyyyyy.. i love hari raya.. i dont care if i dont do anything on that day.. or if i sleep thru most of it.. i just love hari raya.. the mornings.. when i spend time with my parents.. the ketupat, the rendang.. the serondeng..

hafta go down to jurong west extension, to my cousin's place.. thatz like the other end of the planet, from Tampines.. to take the ketupat the rendang and the serondeng.. they cooked extra for us.. and will be going down to the bazaar for the last time tonite.. to change the songkok that we bought for dad.. and since this is the last bazaar there.. itz gonna be the last time ever..

anyway.. i got back from Sydney the day before yesterday.. spent time with my brother, sis in law, and the kids.. gosh.. i really miss them..

anyway, as usual, my brother will try to matchmake me up with some girl whenever he finds out that i am single.. he questions my sexuality.. so this time, itz with a 27 yr old lebanese girl with blue eyes.. i must admit that she's pretty.. but i hate it when ppl think that i am incapable of getting a girl for myself.. i just wanna be alone.. hmm.. i dont think thatz so hard to understand..

for ppl around me, please understand, I WANT TO BE ALONE. i dont want a relationship.

and with that, Maaf Zahir Dan Batin.

here are some of the pics..

In the kids' room, minutes after i arrived

Me and my niece, Shasha

GO GO POWER RANGERS!