Alternative Loansharks

*yawn*

i just got back from night shift.. damn.. itz so tiring.. hard to stay awake for 12 hrz straight at nite..

i'm used to sleep late in the morning when i am online.. but when u HAVE to stay awake.. itz almost impossible..

i drank lots of coffee and 1 red bull.. air kuat..

one of my friends borrowed a hundred bucks from me just now.. it seems like somehow i become like a bank where ppl borrow money from.. i dont mind doing it once in a while and for close friends, i normally would be more than glad to help.. but most ppl dont even bother to return the money.. and strangely, when u lend someone cash, itz more paiseying to ask for it back.. i wonder why ppl who borrows dont feel the paiseyness..

maybe itz just a habit that they have.. they borrow from ppl as how they had been borrowing from other ppl.. so in time, the skin gets thicker.. and they dont really feel anything..

ikhlas is ikhlas.. to lend.. but itz LENDING as how it was promised..

if i say that i GIVE the money to someone, i dont expect it back.. but if it was promised as a loan, then u should make the effort of returning it..

the only time i had borrowed money from someone was for 24 hours.. coz i needed $3000 on the day itself.. and i returned the money the very next morning..

it was even less than 24 hours.. but i was so paisey to have to ask for a favour.. but luckily.. itz one of my close friends that i had known for more than 10 yrz..

hmm.. just as i am typing this.. i received an sms from him asking to borrow another 100.. which i dont think i will oblige..

therez another one of my reservist mates who have this habit.. just on a much worse scale..

ok.. he just called me.. and i told him that i wont be giving another 100..

ok.. back to the other fella. this guy owes money to almost everyone in the troop.. except for me.. coz i know that he's not the kinda person who returns money.. and he has the habit to borrow from anyone that he thinks have the cash.. he dont earn much.. which i do feel sorry.. but i had seen him drunk so many times and in my opinion.. if u wanna enjoy urself, do it with ur extra cash.. not with other people's cash..

or rather.. i think he borrows money for his necessities, but his own salary is wasted on his extra curricular activities.. he's married.. but with several girlfriends..

and his children are on bursary.. and since i had been his supervisor in the troop for so many years, i know his level of performance.. which i shall not get in detail here..

sometimes ppl need help..

i dont mind helping.. but take the responsibilities that goes along with it..

therez a girl who offered to help me pay for a deposit for an event coz it was along the way as she was gonna pay for hers too.. but in the end, she couldnt, and i end up forking another $300 to go there and pay for it myself..

logic tells me that she should have returned the $300 that i transferred to her to pay for it.. but instead, she used the cash and she disappeared.. not fully transparent coz i know where she is, but she just avoids me since then..

itz just a fucking $300. and it doesnt belong to u. why use it?

damn.. i'm whining.. but then again.. itz MY money and i am letting other ppl enjoy the fruits of my hard work.. i work for it u know.. not for those ppl to take it and spend it..

i'd rather spend it on my parents.. or my car.. or even get a new drum part..

and i'd rather spend it on my band and band members.. coz they are part of my family too..

and my close friends, especially those that i had known for ages..

lemme see how long this guy takes to pay back.. i hope he has some sense compared to a lot of other ppl.. i gave him the money just now coz he dont even have cash to eat.. but then again, so were the rest of the ppl who borrowed and disappeared.. they were in a sad state at the time of borrowing.. and i know this guy has 2 kids..

which brings me to another point.. marriage..

why do ppl get married when they are not financially secured?

why take someone's daughter and make her suffer with u?

u dont have to be rich to get married.. but i am sure u can live within ur means and have no need to borrow from other ppl, under normal circumstances..

the Staff Sgt that i was working with the day before yesterday.. SSGT Azmil.. was impressive..

he's known in his team to be very hardworking.. and he is polite, and he's married with a child..

he's 27 yrz old, and wife is a homemaker..

he ride a small bike to work, and he brings food from home..

live within ur means..

again, i shall say.. i work for myself.. not for others to take.. in future, when i intend to be a slave, i shall post it up here..

a different type of loansharks.. those that goes around looking for preys to reap..