If i had lost my faith along the way, I should have regained it recently. Just like deja'vu on the occasion of my dad's death, my cousin suffered the same fate.
My dad died within 11 days of diagnosis till death. And my cousin had 6 days between it. Exactly 2 weeks ago.
The sadness in her eyes when she was first diagnosed with cancer. She looked at me and asked me something that she already knew.
What's the cure for cancer?
How do u answer a question like that for someone who knew but hard to resign to the fact that their life is ending.
I dont know what killed her in the end.
Cancer was the cause. But what was the final reason? Cardiac arrest when she got too weak? Emotional breakdown knowing that therez no chance to live? Was it the morphine that made her weak? Or the fact that she have no reason to live when everyone around her was expecting her to die?
We loved her tremendously. One of the most likeable ppl in my family with her almost always humourous view of life. And I personally miss her greatly.
The promises that we made to her before she dies. Hard to keep, but we will keep it no matter what.
I dont think you could hear what i'm saying right now, but i will say it anyway.
I love you, my dear cousin. And for this time round, i made sure that u knew.
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