Stupid as a Stupid does..

well.. had a nice day today.. after a traumatising evening..

got home at abt 5+ in the morning..

fetched my mom at her workplace at 5, and had prata at the prata cafe near bt timah.. evans rd, near to NIE.

chilled out with my old friends after so long not doing so.. Alfan called me today out of the blue and asked to lepak together.. so i called the rest of my old friends, meraj, wily, andrew.. and we all have known each other for at least 10 yrz..

my sister came to my place at abt 6pm, and at 7+ i went down to her place.. sigh.. i'll talk abt this a bit later..

fetched wily at his block, before visiting my sis' place.. and after that, we headed down to coffee bean @ plaza by the park.. where yazid my guitarist, was working.. and holy shit.. this outlet is KOSHER!

just imagine.. a whole outlet dedicated to jews..

ok.. anyway, met alfan there.. with one of his colleagues, nina.. whom i have met before coz she used to help out at her friend's jamming studio at king george ave..

volvic and his friend, terence, who is a cabin crew as well, came slightly after us... and meraj joined us there at 10+ after his gym session..

so we hangout till 11pm, when the outlet closes, and headed down for sheesha at amirah's, which is next to el sheikh.. met alwi and radiah there... but radiah had to leave coz she wasnt feeling well..

at abt 1.30, we left.. and i was supposed to send alfan and meraj back to the west, as promised.. but ended up having supper with them, and wily and alwi at alif's at bt batok..

sat down talking abt islam and talked abt spirits and death and jin and i think all of us got freaked out..

sent alwi and wily home after that.. and it was really nice hanging out with my old friends after so long.. and we had maintained friendship for a decade.. and these ppl are my "troubleshooters".. having gotten me out of shitz for as long as they know me.. and trust me.. i always get into trouble..

they got me out of my girl problems, troubleshooting situation when needed.. which was quite often for a single lifetime.. they got me out of times when i get stalked by gays and cross dressers..

lots of times..

anyway.. letz talk abt what happened at my sis' place.. i fetched wily along the way to her place.. and let me say some unkind words abt my siblings..

a lot of them screw their lives up..

my real dad married 4.. my mom was the 3rd one.. so from the 1st stepmom, i had 1 elder brother, with 3 elder sisters.. and ALL of them, save for the 2nd one.. screwed their lives.. and that is coz the 2nd one is mentally retarded.. she was said to have contracted a high fever when she was a baby and that destroyed her brain.. sad story.. and i love her very much.. she's the sanest of them all.. so she's like 40 with a mentality of 1.

ok... letz talk abt the rest of them..

the first one.. my elder brother.. he's like 43 now i think.. used to run a multi million dollars entertainment company called Journey Promotions.. and those who grew up partying in the 80s would know abt them.. and he left Journey coz he wanted to turn to religion.. which he did.. but he screwed his life up with taxes and bankruptcy and all.. but he's doing ok now.. bringing his life back on track.. i hope.. but his record of doing business and borrowing money.. and i dunno whether he cheats or not.. but then again, thatz HIS problem and not mine.. we had never been close.. and i dont think i bother to be close anyway..

second one is the mentally retarded one..

third one.. i'll talk abt her and her family later..

fourth one.. married when she was 28.. i think she's almost 40 now.. but a few months after the wedding, her husband overdosed himself on drugs and turned into a vegetative state.. destroyed his brain which wasnt utilised much to begin with.. and therefore she left.. officially divorced.. i think..

i had never liked the idiot from the beginning anyway.. he tried to portray himself to be very religious.. but was arrested for touting before his OD.. and still tried to show that he was religious still afterwards.. what a piece of crap.. anyway, i had never cared abt him and i dont think i do now too..

i have another sister from the second stepmother.. that one too had her life screwed up.. but it wasnt her fault anyway.. she just happened to marry another idiot..

ok... letz talk abt the 2nd sis now..

i had warned wily before we go up to her place.. that my sister lives in poverty.. but her poverty was brought upon her own laziness..

itz not nice to wash dirty linens in public.. but hell.. this is my blog and i can wash any linens that i want.. so herez the story..

she had always been lazy.. married a guy who was a sweeper with HDB.. low paid.. but nice fella.. but god damned stupid..

stupid as a stupid does..

he mixed with the wrong company.. and went out of the religion by following a stupid cult who believes that their prophet comes from india.. yeah.. rite..

for those who doesnt know.. that stupid cult is called Qadiani..

anyway.. his story ends there..

and my sister.. she's known to be lazy anyway.. she's like.. almost 40.. and have 4 kids.. the eldest one is doing his national service as a provost.. and was thinking of doing some further studies if his application to do office hours duty gets approved.. and he's quite a nice fella.. and it is surprising, considering that he comes from THAT family and he wants to do something with his life..

number 2.. will talk abt him in a short while..

number 3.. a boy, in pri 6.. slow in his studies.. but i think he could still be saved..

number 4.. a girl.. in pri 2.. a normal child.. just a lil bit hyperactive.. but she seems ok..

ok.. letz talk abt number 2.

he's now 17.. and couldnt read or write anything.. well.. ok.. if he cant read, he cant possibly write anyway..

grew up on the streets.. and the last time i saw this boy was when he was 14 when my sister complained to me abt him.. running away from home.. and he hit his mother back when she beat him up.. i dont know for whatever reasons.. but i dont think even Saddam's torture cell would change this incorrigible fella..

he now have a blond hair, talks back to anyone that tries to correct him.. and to my surprise, he spots some tattoos on his body..

i caught him several times before when he ran away from home a few years back.. and i think he still fear me.. but i'm at the point where i dont bother abt them anymore..

several years back, we tried to help my sis out by getting her some jobs.. but she will always have complains abt everything and will quit working after several days.. and her only way out that time was calling me every so often to borrow money.. i really dont mind giving it to her, which i had often did.. if she would just work.. just do something..

but of course.. she dont bother to. she's more interested in chatting on the Net. bloody hell. 4 kids and u want to chat on the Net?

get a job. thatz the beginning of the solution to ur problem.

their house is in a despicable state.. so much so that i remembered my ex gf getting traumatised after visiting them several years back. and yes MsHongKong/leila/cat, it is still like that.. just that they now have 2 working bulbs at home, and therez electricity.. and coz itz hari raya season, she swept the floor.

we used to have to wear shoes in that house. the walls, from the entrance door, till the end of the kitchen, and all the rooms, were full of graffitis.. which reminds me of the hyroglyphs in the ancient egyptian tombs, but much worse than the ghettos in brooklyn and bronx and queens, combined. i had suggested thru the years for them to do something abt that place.. but the excuse is always the same.. therez no point doing it coz it will get dirty anyway.. damn.

the doors of the kitchen cabinets had some parts broken, so it hangs from a single hinge, for the past few years.

she have 2 teenage sons. but none of them bother to do anything abt that sty of a house. damn.

and the best thing to know was that, part of the graffiti was done by the 17 yr old, writing whatever that looks familiar to him.. especially the vulgarities..

i wonder why ppl just wouldnt work for a proper home.. if i ever get married.. i wanna be a perfect husband. perfect father. and build a perfect, CLEAN, proper, loving home. and based on Islam. i wanna raise my kids to be the perfect muslims. and no, we wont have any guns or bombs.

i intend to marry only once. and thatz it.

*IF* i ever get married, that is.

and that will be the point where life turns.

some chinese believe that when u were born, therez a string ties u up to ur future partner. no matter when or where or how, u'll be together. i just hope that mine dont tie me up to a tree. i'm tired of barking.

All That Jazz

ah.. another day of Rayaing..

anyway, supposed to jam with the guys from 12 to 1.. but i woke up at 11.30am.. so rushed down to yishun and arrived at 12.15..

so we jammed from 12.30 to 1.30.. got a few songs in place.. and wanted to write a jazz tune.. but it turned out to be very close to bossa nova.. so wait till we complete the song then i'll post it up in the pirates web..

yazid wrote a very nice song btw.. a malay indie song.. so we'll try to complete that song soon too..

after the jamming session, went down to yazid's place.. with din, hamdy, usman, and 2 of yazid's friends, yana and linda..

herez a pic of us taken there..



after yazid's place.. we went off to usman's place.. and had another round of food..

left at abt 5pm, and i headed down to is+huang's place (the crew that i did seoul/san francisco with).. in sengkang.. met up with some of my crew friends there..

left is+huang's place at 6.30, and went home.. my cousin (kak midah) and her husband was there.. and we headed down to another cousin's place (lin) till 8.30 and headed down to jurong west ext to another cousin's place (abg nordin).. and watched XXX 2..

left for home at abt 11pm..

ok.. i know this is getting draggy.. but itz 3am and i have no idea what else to blog now.. and i'm boring myself to death with this too..

Still at the Hari Raya topic..

had a tiring.. but a nice day..

woke up in the afternoon.. and had streams of ppl coming in..

some of my relatives arrived at abt 3pm.. and alwi came down ard that time too.. too many ppl outside so we slacked in my room smoking sheesha and playing chess.. ok alwi.. i lost.. yeah..

some other relatives came down, so made it quite impossible to sit at the living room.. and some of my bandmates (din, hamdy, umi and shida)arrived at 4+.. so all of them slacked in my room too.. listened to mp3s and surfed the net..

alwi left soon after.. and abt half an hour later my relatives and my mom's ex colleagues left.. so we slacked in the living room, smoking sheesha again..

thru that time, several other ppl came and left.. though i dont really know who they are.. i think that we are somehow related..

yazid and usman came soon after..

herez the pics of the band..



somehow.. a trucker's cap dont really go well with baju melayu.. lol..

my brothers, azman +wife + kids, and azlan + fiancee and my stepmom arrived at abt 6..

my brothers, azman and azlan, with shasha, azman's daughter..



yeah yeah.. we look different.. we have different moms, gawddammit..




shafik and shasha

at about 10pm, we left.. i sent the girls home to jurong, and went to seletar reservoir with hamdy, ajid, usman, din, and one of their friends, zul, and a guitar.. we slacked at the reservoir side, with hundreds of other ppl and cars and motorbikes and ah bengs and ah lians and mats and minahs.. i might be the only indian there.. and we played guitar and practiced acoustics for the jamming session tmrw..



and yeah.. will be jamming with the guys only tmrw, for an hour..

therez an interview with radio singapore international (RSI) next week.. dunno for what..

and we are playing in a gig coming up on 11th dec.. at some CC.. with some other ska bands, oi bands and punkrock bands.. i dont know the details.. will post it up when i do.. i have to change away a perth flight for an off day to play in that gig..

so.. today was full of sheesha and shasha and shida and sheletar.. damn.. i'm sooooooo like running out of ideas for an end of a blog posting..

and Home Sweet Home.. again..

well.. i'm home again.. it is always nice to be back..

anyway.. herez a pic of autumn in seoul, taken from my hotel room, just before i checked out of hilton..



beautiful, isnt it?

anyway, reached home at abt 2am.. and was surprised to see a distant relative of mine staying in the spare room that we have.. i refer to this lady as my aunt, though i think we dont really have any blood ties.. but history had tied us back abt 23 yrz ago..

i was a kid of 10 back then.. and my parents had just gone thru a divorce.. so for those who doesnt know the actual story of my life.. my DAD now is actually my stepfather.. but he had been so kind and loving since he married my mom 22 yrz back.. and vowed to raise us as best as he could.. and he did.. and therefore, i had never referred to him as a STEPfather.. he's my dad alright..

and so.. 23 yrz back.. my mom was a single parent, taking care of me, my bro and my great grandma, and we didnt have any place to stay.. and was always moving around looking for shelters in her friends' or some "relatives" place, like this lady.. and she took us in though we didnt have real relations.. not that i know of.. but i dont know much abt relatives anyway..

abt 15 yrz back, her husband died. her 2 daughters were married when they were still teenagers, and she's now with a 17 yr old son, whoz working as a cleaner somewhere..

she was chased out of her daughter's place abt a month ago, and didnt have anywhere to stay.. and by coincidence, my mom was looking for her recently as they have not met for a long time.. and so the sad story was told..

and therefore, she's staying here now.. for as long as she wish to.. my mom is glad to have someone in the house anyway when she leaves for jakarta in january..

some ppl take their children as an insurance for old age.. i just wish that my future kids would not leave me at the top of a mountain somewhere when itz my turn to be dependant..

or i shall not have any kids..

i have heard that nurses in homes for the aged are quite cute too..

hopefully they would be.. in 40 yrz from now..

Autumn in Itaewon

i'm in the crew room in Seoul Hilton.. arrived at this station yesterday..

didnt have much sleep ex-San Francisco.. coz i stayed up at the crew room till abt 3.30am, and had a call time at 9am.. so by the time i got back to my room and packed my stuffs, i had abt 4 hours of sleep..

didnt sleep much on flight during the rest either.. i love flights in and out of states.. yesterday, we passed thru alaska and eastern russia.. and the scenery from the top was beautiful.. we passed thru dunes covered with snow.. and ice glaciers.. rows of snow covered mountains..

on certain sectors, while flying into united states.. we could pass thru greenland.. another beautiful sight.. but normally.. we'd be too busy working to enjoy the view..

landed in seoul in the evening, went out for makan with the crew, ismerly and his wife huang, and huey.. whom later i found out that his name is actually donny.. and he changed it to huey just for this flight..

had bulgogi.. what else.. and headed down to areno to spend the rest of the nite..

woke up late today.. had calls for lunch from jehan and huey.. and Is.. but i couldnt wake up..

so when i finally did.. it was abt 2pm.. took a shuttle to itaewon to get a trolley tag for Noris... another surprise of last week.. chatted with her on msn after 1 1/2 yrz.. and she just started training with Silkair.. so she needed a tag for her trolley with her name..

had lunch alone at macdonald's while waiting for the tag to be ready.. and watched the ppl go by..

itz getting colder now everywhere else in the world.. autumn is seeping in fast.. and moving on too fast.. and the shops in itaewon is getting their winter stuffs ready..

the trees are now covered with yellow and brown and red.. and the ground too.. since the leaves are dropping everywhere.. i should have taken some pics just now.. but i didnt.. so i'll see whether i can snap some nice pics of it tmrw..

autumn is really beautiful..

itz abt 20 degrees here.. which is just nice with cool wind blowing.. and the jacket i bought from old navy is just perfect for the weather..

and soon enough, all these will be gone.. the trees are gonna be bald.. and winter in seoul can be really really bad.. with snow everywhere.. and itz too cold to go out and have a nice time.. a month from now, seoul would be too unbearable for me..

i hate the winter in seoul more than anywhere else in the world..

except for winter in china i guess.. now.. that one is bad too..

anyway.. i hate winter.